"I think, but i am not!" thats what in translates to if you were wondering. i was always interested in the famous saying "I think, therefore I am" i never understood the fascination with it, so i just always nodded my head nervously in agreement with those who so confidently recited it.
until today. as i was going over some french notes, i saw the infamous quote, and i couldnt help but scoff at the idea. then as usual, the wheels started turning.
you know, people always say they are something. "im so rich." "im so in love." "IM SO HOOD!!!" lol. the point is, once someone gets something built up in there mind (thinking), they figure that they are whatever they are feeling at the moment. i think (i am this), so i must be, right?
well no. check back at my last note. if you truly are something, you shouldnt have to validate it with your words. what if what you think you are isnt real, but just your relative view on the life that you lead at the moment? saying this, and knowing that just about everything is relative, how can you really understand what "being" is if your view of this thing and someone elses view of the exact same thing are totally diferent? just a note: as with all of my notes this is truly an opinion. you, that is to say no one, cant really know something until you live without it. only then can you truly appreciate it. love (i'll get back to that in a moment), money, respect; nothing in life can be truly understood until its been compromised.
im sure all the college students of the world have such a deeper appreciation for their parents and home life now that they are on their own. no more home cooked meals, no more money and free housing. all of that stuff is gone once you leave home, but you really dont step back and notice it until youre starving and the school cafe is closed for the night.
a friend of mine told me a story about a family vacation he took. everything was going fine until all of a sudden, his mom passed out. if you've ever seen this guys dad, hes borderline scary. like the kinda guy who you know right off the bat not to mess with. but he said that his dad was in tears.
now im not saying that his dad didnt love his wife and appreciate her, but the way i pictured the scene and aftermath, it was like he was able to put his entire marriage into perspective and really understand why he loved her.
thats what real love is. matter of fact, thats what the word real means. not knowing what you have until its gone is what makes us human, but knowing and understandng what it means or may mean to go without something for a long time makes us real. its all relative until the shit hits the fan. you cant appreciate your wealth until you live in a 3rd world country with no running water or clean sheets. you cant know what real honor is until your morals have been put to the test. you cant know real love until you've felt the deepest hurt imaginable.
thats kinda why i feel sorry for alot of my myspace friends. they put in their names and statuses that they fell in love with this person yesterday and now they got the goofy ass smiley face with the heart eyes today. thats not real. you cant fall in love with someone in a week, or a day, or an hour. anyone who understands what the feeling, not just the word "love" is, knows that it doesnt just happen in a heartbeat. there's no such thing as love at first sight.
i think thats why the divorce rate is so high. the word love is passed off as being the real thing, that now, you have to live without it to understand what it is. you cant know what it means to really feel for someone until they have been taken away from you (and just to make a note, no it wasn't compromising, but it sure as hell was confusing). but once you're able to say to yourself "i'm okay with being alone" and actually follow thru with it, then you're ready. once you're able to understand what its like to live without love, or even have an inkling of losing the thing(s) that matter most to you, then you can gain a totally different perspective on the idea of "real". real love, real wealth, real honor. find out what that means and your perspective of what's real will be changed forever.
all im saying is, thinking and knowing; real and relative are not the same thing. theyre disguised as being the same. but they aren't. knowing is having a common life factor jeopardized by loss. real is being able to define the word "is". not many people can do that. and if they cant do that, what happens when you give them one of the harder words like truth, honor, dignity or respect? just a thought being thrown out there. im done
Forget Ishmael; call me Morpheus lol.
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Not knowing what you have until it's gone is the real definition of ignorance.
ReplyDeleteIf the feeling is true, you know what you have when you have it.
As I said; knowing is relative. Loss is a common ground all people can relate to. Therefore, losing the known is the real definition of "real" because that fact (the fact of loss, that is) is the only thing human beings nowadays can relate to.
ReplyDeleteWhy do you think people only cry at funerals instead of every time they say goodbye to that person.
loss and the pain associated with it opens people's eyes to a different light. I'm not saying it's a good or bad thing. sometimes loss (and the inevitable pain) can bring truth to our lives. It's just hard to see that truth when the relativity of our individual existences prior to loss casts a mosaic over our judgment.
good night