before I begin, I want everyone to continue to pray for my family. For those that don't know, my Aunt is in the hospital. I'm actually at the hospital as we speak. She's doing well though.
So on to the subject at hand. for those of you who are still in chicago, you may or may not have realized some of the atrocities that have been plaguing our fair(ly) gothic city. The numerous homocides, the increase in gang related activity, and the overall blatant disregard for authority or, in some cases, discretion.
A guy in my neighborhood was robbed in broad daylight....like 1pm daylight. all he was doing was trying to get to the bus so he could go to work. and even after, he couldnt because they stole his bookbag with his work clothes
Last weekend, there were numerous shootouts in the Uptown neighborhood (my old stomping ground).
earlier this week, there were police and helicopters shining lights over the Lake. everyone knows the only time they do that is when they're looking for a body.
and lets not forget the dozens of REPORTED home invasions, assaults and robberies all over the city.
I was talking to my favorite homie Susie about all of the recent criminal acts all over the city. not to knock her, because I love this girl to death and beyond (lol). but alot of people seem to want there to be something done, but dont want to take the time to do anything about it. We've become a nation of whiners. We want to live this perfect, utopian existence, but aren't willing to help build it if its not directly related to us. here's a new flash for everyone: everything that happens in this city...everywhere really. is effected positively and negatively by everything else.
If something bad happens to one person, it might, psychologically, fuck them the hell up. I'll give a classic example:
for years, hundreds of years even, the media has demonized black society. black women were objects to be used at the discretion of men. black men were powerful, uncontrollable entities that were (are) to be feared. when you reinforce that over generations, it becomes commonplace for a woman to get a death grip on her purse when a black male enters an elevator. Note: if someone wanted to take your purse lady, theyd do it. And we're in an elevator. where the fuck am I going to go?
anyway, that one aspect of media has changed the face of how people viewed one another. It has effected schools, jobs, residences.
So how do we stop things like racism, violence, and toher negative things? we need to act. even the smallest act can change someone's life forever. One thing you will notice about almost everyone that commits a violent crime or is incarcerated is that they have very poor education. low education has been linked to violent crimes for years, so why is it still a factor? it's quite simple -- even if you have/are pursuing an education, go to a school where educational standards arent held as highly as an NBA contract. volunteer to work in an after school program. take a group of friends and read to a bunch of 3rd graders. these things just wont magically go away because you wish them away. people need to stand together and say "This has got to stop."
everyday is a gift. that's why it's called "present" so make the most of it, in light of your self. get out in the communities so someones gift can be changed.
till next time
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Vol. 34: Ignorance is....American.
Yes, it has been quite a long time since I've actually written a note....for that matter, it's been a long time since I've adequately expressed my opinion on various subjects. however, I was watching Real Time with Bill Maher a minute ago and realized the ugly truth....Americans are dumbasses.
For those of you who have HBO or just simply know the humorous yet ugly reality of Maher's wit, you know that often times it's hard to really figure out what's truth, and what's a joke. However, as I was listening to his ending segment, between laughs, i realized that alot of what he was saying probably isn't far from the truth. i'll educate those of you who don't know....just tell me if, given the current condition of american do-diligence, these statements sound about right....
On the Eve (the day before) the Iraq War, 70% of Americans believed Suddam Huissan was personally involved with 9/11....6 years later, 34% still do.
The majority of Americans ( not all, but many) cannot name a single branch of the Government....
...or explain what the Bill of Rights is...
24% of Americans can't recall the country America fought in the Revolutionary War
Over 2/3 of Americans don't know what's in Roe v. Wade....
2/3 of Americans don' know what the FOOD and DRUG administration does
nearly half don't know that every state has TWO Senators and more than half, can't name their congressmen
these are the things that our forefathers fought ENGLAND for. the right to know...just to know. to ask questions; to debate logically when we disagree with something or someone. Now, it seems that Americans have given up on knowledge. if this was a marriage, the government would be the wife that nags her husband (i.e. the citizens) to the point of "yes, dear." "that's a good idea, honey." "you're so smart, dear." it's almost like Americans want to know, but are afraid to stand up and ACT, rather than just speak.
So much complaining is being done about the economic crises, and the fact that the C.E.O.s are STILL taking vacations to resorts using tax payer dollars. Why have none of them been indicted? Why, after contributing trillions of dollars in taxes and deficit spending, are there no new jobs being created? That is the purpose of deficit spending! look at WWII America. FDR used deficit spending to resurrect the country out of something far worse than what we're in now. So why can't we, a more technologically, and (supposedly) educated America, get it together? the unemployment rate in The United States in 2009 should not be teetering towards the 10% edge. it should not be easier to get weed than to get affordable healthcare, or get federal funding for college (I just found out that even if you don't live with your parents and even if you are financially indepedent, their income still effects your FAFSA). We all think it, but no one wants to ask "where the Hell is my money going?"
Actually. Hold that thought. people shouldn't be asking where their money is going. people should ask "what is my money DOING?"
the avg voter believes 24% of government spending is in foreign Aid. WRONG! less than 1% goes to foreign aid.
instead of worrying about bailing out the real evil-doers (a la George Dubya Bush), we should consider educating ourselves so our government will become OUR bitch....not the other way around. until we learn to fight for ourselves, we will never be truly United....unable to live freely and speak openly as so many of us claim to.
...F.Y.I. Freedom of Speech is in the Bill of Rights.
till next time.
For those of you who have HBO or just simply know the humorous yet ugly reality of Maher's wit, you know that often times it's hard to really figure out what's truth, and what's a joke. However, as I was listening to his ending segment, between laughs, i realized that alot of what he was saying probably isn't far from the truth. i'll educate those of you who don't know....just tell me if, given the current condition of american do-diligence, these statements sound about right....
On the Eve (the day before) the Iraq War, 70% of Americans believed Suddam Huissan was personally involved with 9/11....6 years later, 34% still do.
The majority of Americans ( not all, but many) cannot name a single branch of the Government....
...or explain what the Bill of Rights is...
24% of Americans can't recall the country America fought in the Revolutionary War
Over 2/3 of Americans don't know what's in Roe v. Wade....
2/3 of Americans don' know what the FOOD and DRUG administration does
nearly half don't know that every state has TWO Senators and more than half, can't name their congressmen
these are the things that our forefathers fought ENGLAND for. the right to know...just to know. to ask questions; to debate logically when we disagree with something or someone. Now, it seems that Americans have given up on knowledge. if this was a marriage, the government would be the wife that nags her husband (i.e. the citizens) to the point of "yes, dear." "that's a good idea, honey." "you're so smart, dear." it's almost like Americans want to know, but are afraid to stand up and ACT, rather than just speak.
So much complaining is being done about the economic crises, and the fact that the C.E.O.s are STILL taking vacations to resorts using tax payer dollars. Why have none of them been indicted? Why, after contributing trillions of dollars in taxes and deficit spending, are there no new jobs being created? That is the purpose of deficit spending! look at WWII America. FDR used deficit spending to resurrect the country out of something far worse than what we're in now. So why can't we, a more technologically, and (supposedly) educated America, get it together? the unemployment rate in The United States in 2009 should not be teetering towards the 10% edge. it should not be easier to get weed than to get affordable healthcare, or get federal funding for college (I just found out that even if you don't live with your parents and even if you are financially indepedent, their income still effects your FAFSA). We all think it, but no one wants to ask "where the Hell is my money going?"
Actually. Hold that thought. people shouldn't be asking where their money is going. people should ask "what is my money DOING?"
the avg voter believes 24% of government spending is in foreign Aid. WRONG! less than 1% goes to foreign aid.
instead of worrying about bailing out the real evil-doers (a la George Dubya Bush), we should consider educating ourselves so our government will become OUR bitch....not the other way around. until we learn to fight for ourselves, we will never be truly United....unable to live freely and speak openly as so many of us claim to.
...F.Y.I. Freedom of Speech is in the Bill of Rights.
till next time.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Vol. 33: Je pense, mais Je actualite ne suis pas
"I think, but i am not!" thats what in translates to if you were wondering. i was always interested in the famous saying "I think, therefore I am" i never understood the fascination with it, so i just always nodded my head nervously in agreement with those who so confidently recited it.
until today. as i was going over some french notes, i saw the infamous quote, and i couldnt help but scoff at the idea. then as usual, the wheels started turning.
you know, people always say they are something. "im so rich." "im so in love." "IM SO HOOD!!!" lol. the point is, once someone gets something built up in there mind (thinking), they figure that they are whatever they are feeling at the moment. i think (i am this), so i must be, right?
well no. check back at my last note. if you truly are something, you shouldnt have to validate it with your words. what if what you think you are isnt real, but just your relative view on the life that you lead at the moment? saying this, and knowing that just about everything is relative, how can you really understand what "being" is if your view of this thing and someone elses view of the exact same thing are totally diferent? just a note: as with all of my notes this is truly an opinion. you, that is to say no one, cant really know something until you live without it. only then can you truly appreciate it. love (i'll get back to that in a moment), money, respect; nothing in life can be truly understood until its been compromised.
im sure all the college students of the world have such a deeper appreciation for their parents and home life now that they are on their own. no more home cooked meals, no more money and free housing. all of that stuff is gone once you leave home, but you really dont step back and notice it until youre starving and the school cafe is closed for the night.
a friend of mine told me a story about a family vacation he took. everything was going fine until all of a sudden, his mom passed out. if you've ever seen this guys dad, hes borderline scary. like the kinda guy who you know right off the bat not to mess with. but he said that his dad was in tears.
now im not saying that his dad didnt love his wife and appreciate her, but the way i pictured the scene and aftermath, it was like he was able to put his entire marriage into perspective and really understand why he loved her.
thats what real love is. matter of fact, thats what the word real means. not knowing what you have until its gone is what makes us human, but knowing and understandng what it means or may mean to go without something for a long time makes us real. its all relative until the shit hits the fan. you cant appreciate your wealth until you live in a 3rd world country with no running water or clean sheets. you cant know what real honor is until your morals have been put to the test. you cant know real love until you've felt the deepest hurt imaginable.
thats kinda why i feel sorry for alot of my myspace friends. they put in their names and statuses that they fell in love with this person yesterday and now they got the goofy ass smiley face with the heart eyes today. thats not real. you cant fall in love with someone in a week, or a day, or an hour. anyone who understands what the feeling, not just the word "love" is, knows that it doesnt just happen in a heartbeat. there's no such thing as love at first sight.
i think thats why the divorce rate is so high. the word love is passed off as being the real thing, that now, you have to live without it to understand what it is. you cant know what it means to really feel for someone until they have been taken away from you (and just to make a note, no it wasn't compromising, but it sure as hell was confusing). but once you're able to say to yourself "i'm okay with being alone" and actually follow thru with it, then you're ready. once you're able to understand what its like to live without love, or even have an inkling of losing the thing(s) that matter most to you, then you can gain a totally different perspective on the idea of "real". real love, real wealth, real honor. find out what that means and your perspective of what's real will be changed forever.
all im saying is, thinking and knowing; real and relative are not the same thing. theyre disguised as being the same. but they aren't. knowing is having a common life factor jeopardized by loss. real is being able to define the word "is". not many people can do that. and if they cant do that, what happens when you give them one of the harder words like truth, honor, dignity or respect? just a thought being thrown out there. im done
Forget Ishmael; call me Morpheus lol.
until today. as i was going over some french notes, i saw the infamous quote, and i couldnt help but scoff at the idea. then as usual, the wheels started turning.
you know, people always say they are something. "im so rich." "im so in love." "IM SO HOOD!!!" lol. the point is, once someone gets something built up in there mind (thinking), they figure that they are whatever they are feeling at the moment. i think (i am this), so i must be, right?
well no. check back at my last note. if you truly are something, you shouldnt have to validate it with your words. what if what you think you are isnt real, but just your relative view on the life that you lead at the moment? saying this, and knowing that just about everything is relative, how can you really understand what "being" is if your view of this thing and someone elses view of the exact same thing are totally diferent? just a note: as with all of my notes this is truly an opinion. you, that is to say no one, cant really know something until you live without it. only then can you truly appreciate it. love (i'll get back to that in a moment), money, respect; nothing in life can be truly understood until its been compromised.
im sure all the college students of the world have such a deeper appreciation for their parents and home life now that they are on their own. no more home cooked meals, no more money and free housing. all of that stuff is gone once you leave home, but you really dont step back and notice it until youre starving and the school cafe is closed for the night.
a friend of mine told me a story about a family vacation he took. everything was going fine until all of a sudden, his mom passed out. if you've ever seen this guys dad, hes borderline scary. like the kinda guy who you know right off the bat not to mess with. but he said that his dad was in tears.
now im not saying that his dad didnt love his wife and appreciate her, but the way i pictured the scene and aftermath, it was like he was able to put his entire marriage into perspective and really understand why he loved her.
thats what real love is. matter of fact, thats what the word real means. not knowing what you have until its gone is what makes us human, but knowing and understandng what it means or may mean to go without something for a long time makes us real. its all relative until the shit hits the fan. you cant appreciate your wealth until you live in a 3rd world country with no running water or clean sheets. you cant know what real honor is until your morals have been put to the test. you cant know real love until you've felt the deepest hurt imaginable.
thats kinda why i feel sorry for alot of my myspace friends. they put in their names and statuses that they fell in love with this person yesterday and now they got the goofy ass smiley face with the heart eyes today. thats not real. you cant fall in love with someone in a week, or a day, or an hour. anyone who understands what the feeling, not just the word "love" is, knows that it doesnt just happen in a heartbeat. there's no such thing as love at first sight.
i think thats why the divorce rate is so high. the word love is passed off as being the real thing, that now, you have to live without it to understand what it is. you cant know what it means to really feel for someone until they have been taken away from you (and just to make a note, no it wasn't compromising, but it sure as hell was confusing). but once you're able to say to yourself "i'm okay with being alone" and actually follow thru with it, then you're ready. once you're able to understand what its like to live without love, or even have an inkling of losing the thing(s) that matter most to you, then you can gain a totally different perspective on the idea of "real". real love, real wealth, real honor. find out what that means and your perspective of what's real will be changed forever.
all im saying is, thinking and knowing; real and relative are not the same thing. theyre disguised as being the same. but they aren't. knowing is having a common life factor jeopardized by loss. real is being able to define the word "is". not many people can do that. and if they cant do that, what happens when you give them one of the harder words like truth, honor, dignity or respect? just a thought being thrown out there. im done
Forget Ishmael; call me Morpheus lol.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Vol. 32: The Validity of All Things Nonsensical
pardon me if the harshness of the words to come intrude, embarrass or offend the psyche of the weak minded individuals who may read this.
a few days ago, i came across this persons profile (on myyearbook.com) and her status said something along the lines of: "no more bs. im on my grown woman status!" now at first i kinda blew it off, because i see that kind of fuckery all the time. but then it started to bug me. i mean if you're grown, why do you need to broadcast it to the world? nevermind the fact that half the people who bothered to look at your status simply did so because you were a friend online at the time. they really dont know you, nor do they care enough about you or your grown-ness (or lack thereof) to trouble themselves with the praise and adoration that you so selfishly seek. so in essence, she was displaying it for strangers who didnt know or cared to know about who she was or what she stood for. sooooo...my conclusion is that she needed to say it to make herself feel better about her shallow existence.
and so me being the overthinker that i am, i started to apply that whole situation to life: peoples statuses of facebook/myspace, pictures, and things i see and hear out in the streets of this thriving metropolis. and i realized...this self affirmation is not a plague that infects this poor, not-so-grown person...its a national crisis. its something that people feel the need to do so that they feel as if they have some sort worth in what appears to be a bleak and dismal existence. the people i feel the most pity for are couples.
how many people do you see everyday who just absolutely have hold hands no matter where they go? like the moment they touched for the first time they were forever bound together and even the slightest disconnection will result in a fatal heart attack, stroke, and body racking seizure... all at once. or my personal favorite: how many people have friends who have whole albums dedicated to their current? now thats all well and fine but tell me: are most of those pictures taken by those two individuals? here's a news flash: if you have 50 pictures in an album, and 49 of them were taken by either you or your partner, that means....NO ONE ELSE GIVES A SHIT! having 10 or 11 is fine. i would do the same thing...actually, i have done the same thing, but 50+ is just excessive.
oh and lets not even get into the public acts. you know, i dont understand why some females feel that they always have to be in competition with each other, especially when they are out with they're "man". do you really have to spend an hour and a half getting ready to go drive to and sit in a dark theater for 2 hours? ohhhh...its because you want to make a statement that your boyfriend chose you, and you're overthinking the fact that if you dont look like a model at all times, he's gonna run off to the next pretty girl he sees. let me make something extremely, horribly clear: most guys would rather you go to the movies or out to the mall in sweats and a t-shirt then to get dressed up so you can show off and show out for all the other girls who might dare look at him; just so they know what they have to work for. if a guy wanted to go after another girl, he would. its as simple as that. you have to work hard for a guys love (sometimes harder than others) but once you have it, it's not going anywhere, and if he stops loving you once you start dressing down, then that means he really didnt love you to begin with. dont dress like you're going to the club if youre not at the club. matter of fact...dont dress like youre going to the club if you ARE at the club because no guy will date a club girl. NO GUY. you get dressed up just so you can say you had the most guys after you. again...self validation.
public validation is something that people feel the need to display to the world that says they are different; they are real, genuine, or know enough about life that they don't need anything from anyone, and to prove this to themselves, they make sure that it is seen, heard, and known by the world...whether the world cares or not. think about all of the people you see in your day to day lives. all the couples, emos, homosexuals, metrosexuals, rockers, preps, and ne'er do wells. many of them dress a certain way, act a certain way, and try to make the statement that they are unique from everyone else in society. if you are so different and unique, why are you dressed and acting like everyone else around you? why do you wear skinny jeans, and play the guitar? why do you wear bright colors and 5 million bracelets? why do you give the evil eye to the waitress who just asks your date what he wants to drink? its because you are insecure about who you are. if the things you say and display to those around you were real, they wouldnt need to be said because it would already be known. you wouldnt need to nuke your statuses saying how much you love your bf/gf. if they really knew, it would be because of your actions; not the petty insecure words you post every two seconds in order to help you and him/her feel better about the sham of a relationship you have. so my advice is this. if you want to be unique, just be normal. dont try to be a trendy, popular gimmick just so everyone else notices you.
you know there's this new product out. its a revolutionary new item, and i think everyone should invest in it. its called a "Life". they're on sell now at Target, Wal mart, Best Buy, and all major gas stations. go pick one up before its too late
till next time
a few days ago, i came across this persons profile (on myyearbook.com) and her status said something along the lines of: "no more bs. im on my grown woman status!" now at first i kinda blew it off, because i see that kind of fuckery all the time. but then it started to bug me. i mean if you're grown, why do you need to broadcast it to the world? nevermind the fact that half the people who bothered to look at your status simply did so because you were a friend online at the time. they really dont know you, nor do they care enough about you or your grown-ness (or lack thereof) to trouble themselves with the praise and adoration that you so selfishly seek. so in essence, she was displaying it for strangers who didnt know or cared to know about who she was or what she stood for. sooooo...my conclusion is that she needed to say it to make herself feel better about her shallow existence.
and so me being the overthinker that i am, i started to apply that whole situation to life: peoples statuses of facebook/myspace, pictures, and things i see and hear out in the streets of this thriving metropolis. and i realized...this self affirmation is not a plague that infects this poor, not-so-grown person...its a national crisis. its something that people feel the need to do so that they feel as if they have some sort worth in what appears to be a bleak and dismal existence. the people i feel the most pity for are couples.
how many people do you see everyday who just absolutely have hold hands no matter where they go? like the moment they touched for the first time they were forever bound together and even the slightest disconnection will result in a fatal heart attack, stroke, and body racking seizure... all at once. or my personal favorite: how many people have friends who have whole albums dedicated to their current? now thats all well and fine but tell me: are most of those pictures taken by those two individuals? here's a news flash: if you have 50 pictures in an album, and 49 of them were taken by either you or your partner, that means....NO ONE ELSE GIVES A SHIT! having 10 or 11 is fine. i would do the same thing...actually, i have done the same thing, but 50+ is just excessive.
oh and lets not even get into the public acts. you know, i dont understand why some females feel that they always have to be in competition with each other, especially when they are out with they're "man". do you really have to spend an hour and a half getting ready to go drive to and sit in a dark theater for 2 hours? ohhhh...its because you want to make a statement that your boyfriend chose you, and you're overthinking the fact that if you dont look like a model at all times, he's gonna run off to the next pretty girl he sees. let me make something extremely, horribly clear: most guys would rather you go to the movies or out to the mall in sweats and a t-shirt then to get dressed up so you can show off and show out for all the other girls who might dare look at him; just so they know what they have to work for. if a guy wanted to go after another girl, he would. its as simple as that. you have to work hard for a guys love (sometimes harder than others) but once you have it, it's not going anywhere, and if he stops loving you once you start dressing down, then that means he really didnt love you to begin with. dont dress like you're going to the club if youre not at the club. matter of fact...dont dress like youre going to the club if you ARE at the club because no guy will date a club girl. NO GUY. you get dressed up just so you can say you had the most guys after you. again...self validation.
public validation is something that people feel the need to display to the world that says they are different; they are real, genuine, or know enough about life that they don't need anything from anyone, and to prove this to themselves, they make sure that it is seen, heard, and known by the world...whether the world cares or not. think about all of the people you see in your day to day lives. all the couples, emos, homosexuals, metrosexuals, rockers, preps, and ne'er do wells. many of them dress a certain way, act a certain way, and try to make the statement that they are unique from everyone else in society. if you are so different and unique, why are you dressed and acting like everyone else around you? why do you wear skinny jeans, and play the guitar? why do you wear bright colors and 5 million bracelets? why do you give the evil eye to the waitress who just asks your date what he wants to drink? its because you are insecure about who you are. if the things you say and display to those around you were real, they wouldnt need to be said because it would already be known. you wouldnt need to nuke your statuses saying how much you love your bf/gf. if they really knew, it would be because of your actions; not the petty insecure words you post every two seconds in order to help you and him/her feel better about the sham of a relationship you have. so my advice is this. if you want to be unique, just be normal. dont try to be a trendy, popular gimmick just so everyone else notices you.
you know there's this new product out. its a revolutionary new item, and i think everyone should invest in it. its called a "Life". they're on sell now at Target, Wal mart, Best Buy, and all major gas stations. go pick one up before its too late
till next time
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Vol. 31: V-Day: The Other STD
if you're one of those naive, easily-offended and therefore preachy traditionalist, id strongly advise you not to read beyond this point.
Valentine's Day. probably one of the most ridiculous, unnecessary holidays of the year. its kinda like New Years; you don't see the point in getting overly enthused about it--its not like you get a prize or anything if you jump up and down and see rainbows and happy times all damn day. but you feel guilty and unassimilated if you don't act like a retard and jump on the bandwagon with all the other gullible dopes in the country who celebrate it. its pretty much a lose-lose situation. just think about it
if you're a girl, you pretty much expect that your boyfriend will join the crowd and buy you flowers and candy and sing you songs and take you to dinner and have the violinist play you a solo. come on with the bullshit. the only reason he remembers is because you constantly beat him over the head about it, silently dropping hints that you're expecting the most spectacular surprise in the history of dating. but...its not a surprise if you're expecting it, is it? hmm. anyway, here's the real kicker. if you DON'T get anything, you feel unloved, unwanted, unattractive, and all those other UN- words that make your man feel like he is the scum of the earth.and god forbid if he forgets...oh wait. scratch that. god forbid if you're SINGLE, because then you become everyone's problem.
guys arent all that innocent tho. i mean lets face it, after all the candy getting, and flower picking, it'd be nice if we could get some of that good-good. its a guilty expectation. but its a shame that we kinda get left in the dust of the female inhibition to worship hollywoods stranglehold of the love concept.
whats so special about today (well tomorrow). would you really expect flowers and candy if it wasnt a holiday? now what if it wasnt a holiday and you expected it; wouldn't you get bored, or even creeped out that this man was willing and enthusiastic about showing his affection on a regular basis?
ladies and gentlemen....you've all been dooped by Hallmark and American Capitalism. why dont they advertise MLK day like this? why is Columbus day left in the dark. Why is hootie Hoo day forgotten? why should a calendar day dictate when you show and are shown affection? if you really love a woman, you should be willing to send her flowers on the most random day of the week...like a tuesday.right to her classroom/job/house. you should know that no matter what, he loves you and worships the very ground you walk on. no 5 cent piece of cardboard can express that. but dont just take it from me, i managed to pull a few VD (pun intended) skeptics out of the journalistic world
"Yes, Valentine's Day is such a special, useful holiday, and not at all a corporate invention conjured up to sell useless crap that people don't need. Certainly, flowers are great. What could be better than an exorbitantly expensive gift that is certain to die in a week? And greeting cards? What says 'I care about you deeply' more than a piece of cardboard with a trite sentiment dreamed up by a team of advertisers? And chocolates? Who doesn't love a box of candy where you enjoy at least one out of every 10 pieces? Has there ever been a better idea than a holiday that exists for the sole purpose of being used as a guilt trip when someone forgets it? I think not!" -- Stephen Markley. Redeye
if you're wondering how i feel about VD, you should expect a gift the week before rather than the day of. but just because it doesnt come the day of, doesnt mean you aren't in my heart. thats the sign of true love. much like my upcoming note "The fiery Pits"
till next time, peace, "love" and eternal jazzyness
Happy St. Patrick's Day
uknow.
Valentine's Day. probably one of the most ridiculous, unnecessary holidays of the year. its kinda like New Years; you don't see the point in getting overly enthused about it--its not like you get a prize or anything if you jump up and down and see rainbows and happy times all damn day. but you feel guilty and unassimilated if you don't act like a retard and jump on the bandwagon with all the other gullible dopes in the country who celebrate it. its pretty much a lose-lose situation. just think about it
if you're a girl, you pretty much expect that your boyfriend will join the crowd and buy you flowers and candy and sing you songs and take you to dinner and have the violinist play you a solo. come on with the bullshit. the only reason he remembers is because you constantly beat him over the head about it, silently dropping hints that you're expecting the most spectacular surprise in the history of dating. but...its not a surprise if you're expecting it, is it? hmm. anyway, here's the real kicker. if you DON'T get anything, you feel unloved, unwanted, unattractive, and all those other UN- words that make your man feel like he is the scum of the earth.and god forbid if he forgets...oh wait. scratch that. god forbid if you're SINGLE, because then you become everyone's problem.
guys arent all that innocent tho. i mean lets face it, after all the candy getting, and flower picking, it'd be nice if we could get some of that good-good. its a guilty expectation. but its a shame that we kinda get left in the dust of the female inhibition to worship hollywoods stranglehold of the love concept.
whats so special about today (well tomorrow). would you really expect flowers and candy if it wasnt a holiday? now what if it wasnt a holiday and you expected it; wouldn't you get bored, or even creeped out that this man was willing and enthusiastic about showing his affection on a regular basis?
ladies and gentlemen....you've all been dooped by Hallmark and American Capitalism. why dont they advertise MLK day like this? why is Columbus day left in the dark. Why is hootie Hoo day forgotten? why should a calendar day dictate when you show and are shown affection? if you really love a woman, you should be willing to send her flowers on the most random day of the week...like a tuesday.right to her classroom/job/house. you should know that no matter what, he loves you and worships the very ground you walk on. no 5 cent piece of cardboard can express that. but dont just take it from me, i managed to pull a few VD (pun intended) skeptics out of the journalistic world
"Yes, Valentine's Day is such a special, useful holiday, and not at all a corporate invention conjured up to sell useless crap that people don't need. Certainly, flowers are great. What could be better than an exorbitantly expensive gift that is certain to die in a week? And greeting cards? What says 'I care about you deeply' more than a piece of cardboard with a trite sentiment dreamed up by a team of advertisers? And chocolates? Who doesn't love a box of candy where you enjoy at least one out of every 10 pieces? Has there ever been a better idea than a holiday that exists for the sole purpose of being used as a guilt trip when someone forgets it? I think not!" -- Stephen Markley. Redeye
if you're wondering how i feel about VD, you should expect a gift the week before rather than the day of. but just because it doesnt come the day of, doesnt mean you aren't in my heart. thats the sign of true love. much like my upcoming note "The fiery Pits"
till next time, peace, "love" and eternal jazzyness
Happy St. Patrick's Day
uknow.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Vol. 30: All Twins Think Alike
this is why i love my twin, Lee Lee. she knows exactly whats up in the male mind. too bad i cant return the favor and dropsome knowledge about females (that would take years tho). anyway, this are the true Man Laws. enjoy em and thanks twin! (my favorites are in bold)
--Guys don't like sluts even though they have sex with them!
--"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.
--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.
--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.
--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
--A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
--Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.
--Guys get jealous easily.
--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.
--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
--Girls are guys' weaknesses.
--Guys are very open about themselves.
--It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.
--Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
--Guys will brag about anything.
--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.
--No matter how much guys talk about ass and boobs, personality is key.
--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
--Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.
--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships. (don's side note; NO ONE can write a book about relationships)
--Try to be as straightforward as possible.
--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
--When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
--Guys don't really have final decisions.
--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.
--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.
--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
--Guys like femininity not feebleness. (don's side note; emasculating (google it) a man is what kills relationships. dont try to wear the pants all the time)
--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
--Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.
--Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.
--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
--If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.
--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
--A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.
--Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a asshole doesn't mean he represents ALL of us.
--We don't like girls who are too skinny.
--We love it when girls talk about there boobs.
--Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and tell them about yours...
--When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually
--Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...
--Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.
--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.
--Guys don't like sluts even though they have sex with them!
--"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.
--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.
--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.
--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
--A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
--Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.
--Guys get jealous easily.
--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.
--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
--Girls are guys' weaknesses.
--Guys are very open about themselves.
--It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.
--Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
--Guys will brag about anything.
--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.
--No matter how much guys talk about ass and boobs, personality is key.
--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
--Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.
--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships. (don's side note; NO ONE can write a book about relationships)
--Try to be as straightforward as possible.
--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
--When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
--Guys don't really have final decisions.
--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.
--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.
--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
--Guys like femininity not feebleness. (don's side note; emasculating (google it) a man is what kills relationships. dont try to wear the pants all the time)
--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
--Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.
--Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.
--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
--If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.
--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
--A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.
--Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a asshole doesn't mean he represents ALL of us.
--We don't like girls who are too skinny.
--We love it when girls talk about there boobs.
--Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and tell them about yours...
--When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually
--Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...
--Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.
--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Vol. 29: The Homocidal Cliche
its definitely been a while since i wrote a note. however the concept and the rules are still the same. this time, i have some things to add.
1. do not just assume that my love life is just terrible and im just venting about how all women are terrible people. women arent terrible. just confused individuals. but thats a topic for another note.
2. do not...i repeat...do NOT tell me about how love has come to your life and about you and your bf/gf and how in love you are, because, personally...i dont care. i always write about what i see. i try to keep my experiences and life out of all of my notes, minus AAS. so again, dont think im talking about myself or about one persons experience. its all general.
3. this is not what i mentioned in my last note. that explanation is still forthcoming.
so on to the note. i was gonna write this last night but the conversation i had about this went well until i fell asleep.
my cousin was at my house last night, and i was forced to watch that bullshit show A Double Shot At Love. now don't get me wrong, i love the twins, and the whole fact of girls making out makes me weak in the knees. however, the concept of the show proved the point ive been making for months now: love does not exist.
how can you say love exist when shows like that, Flavor of Love, and I Love New York exist? you can say they are just shows, and they are, but people are influenced by them and are made to think that love is just that easy to find. its not even just this. movies, music, books...people get sucked into these things and begin to think that whats portrayed in them is what love really is. its all bullshit. that whole "i love you *kiss*" at the end of pretty much every movie is all crap. thats why the movie ends that way. they dont want you to see what happens down the road-- that would make people sad, and they would lose money. i want to see a movie--a sequel that shows the relationship after six months. is it still so happy and lovie dovie? show me when they fight. show me when they argue. and show me the aftermath of that. thats what real love is.
but people dont get that. they dont want that. they just want someone to feed their egos. people want someone that will compliment them 24/7. women want him to be her boy-girlfriend; a borderline gay guy who will kiss her ass all the damn time. alot of guys want to be in charge. someone who will just say "yes dear" "thats a good idea, honey". and then you realize you dont want that when you get bored. but you're so used to being spoiled, you wouldnt be able to handle someone who is willing to go against what you say and tell you flat out that you are wrong. so you go behind the persons back and find someone else who gives you what you want. and then when neither of them want you when the smoke clears, you want to listen to these dumbass love songs talking about how that gender is the death to yours and how you could've done better. yea, you couldve done better, if you had been mature like you always claim you are. you're not mature if you tell 3, 4, 5 people that you are so in love with them, because in reality, you have no idea what love is. you just have the general concept based on what you see at the end of the movies and in love songs. but you dont think you're doing anything wrong because you think you are mature and think you are grown. come on with the bullshit.
and for the love songs and movies giving you false hope in this vague concept, think about this. the same artist that puts out that love song, has another track on the SAME ALBUM talking about how that person was oh so wrong for them. i dont get it. really i dont. i swear people are idiots. but they continuously fall for it. and dont tell me that its because they believe in love. understand what real love is first, before you try to help other people cope with it.
so i say this. before you go and fall "oh so in love" with the supposed greatest person you've ever met...grow the fuck up. get the real feeling. understand that REAL love. it means feeling that you would kill yourself without this person. dont say it to 5 million different people. that's why its lost its edge. its said so much now, it doesnt even mean anything. its become a cliche. something thats just said because it sounds right, or because it just fits. or even worse, when someone shows is nice to you for a week. if thats the case, then just start counting down to the end now.
im done. i can talk about this for days but its beginning to piss me off again. twin..i need a brick lol
till next time
...you know..
1. do not just assume that my love life is just terrible and im just venting about how all women are terrible people. women arent terrible. just confused individuals. but thats a topic for another note.
2. do not...i repeat...do NOT tell me about how love has come to your life and about you and your bf/gf and how in love you are, because, personally...i dont care. i always write about what i see. i try to keep my experiences and life out of all of my notes, minus AAS. so again, dont think im talking about myself or about one persons experience. its all general.
3. this is not what i mentioned in my last note. that explanation is still forthcoming.
so on to the note. i was gonna write this last night but the conversation i had about this went well until i fell asleep.
my cousin was at my house last night, and i was forced to watch that bullshit show A Double Shot At Love. now don't get me wrong, i love the twins, and the whole fact of girls making out makes me weak in the knees. however, the concept of the show proved the point ive been making for months now: love does not exist.
how can you say love exist when shows like that, Flavor of Love, and I Love New York exist? you can say they are just shows, and they are, but people are influenced by them and are made to think that love is just that easy to find. its not even just this. movies, music, books...people get sucked into these things and begin to think that whats portrayed in them is what love really is. its all bullshit. that whole "i love you *kiss*" at the end of pretty much every movie is all crap. thats why the movie ends that way. they dont want you to see what happens down the road-- that would make people sad, and they would lose money. i want to see a movie--a sequel that shows the relationship after six months. is it still so happy and lovie dovie? show me when they fight. show me when they argue. and show me the aftermath of that. thats what real love is.
but people dont get that. they dont want that. they just want someone to feed their egos. people want someone that will compliment them 24/7. women want him to be her boy-girlfriend; a borderline gay guy who will kiss her ass all the damn time. alot of guys want to be in charge. someone who will just say "yes dear" "thats a good idea, honey". and then you realize you dont want that when you get bored. but you're so used to being spoiled, you wouldnt be able to handle someone who is willing to go against what you say and tell you flat out that you are wrong. so you go behind the persons back and find someone else who gives you what you want. and then when neither of them want you when the smoke clears, you want to listen to these dumbass love songs talking about how that gender is the death to yours and how you could've done better. yea, you couldve done better, if you had been mature like you always claim you are. you're not mature if you tell 3, 4, 5 people that you are so in love with them, because in reality, you have no idea what love is. you just have the general concept based on what you see at the end of the movies and in love songs. but you dont think you're doing anything wrong because you think you are mature and think you are grown. come on with the bullshit.
and for the love songs and movies giving you false hope in this vague concept, think about this. the same artist that puts out that love song, has another track on the SAME ALBUM talking about how that person was oh so wrong for them. i dont get it. really i dont. i swear people are idiots. but they continuously fall for it. and dont tell me that its because they believe in love. understand what real love is first, before you try to help other people cope with it.
so i say this. before you go and fall "oh so in love" with the supposed greatest person you've ever met...grow the fuck up. get the real feeling. understand that REAL love. it means feeling that you would kill yourself without this person. dont say it to 5 million different people. that's why its lost its edge. its said so much now, it doesnt even mean anything. its become a cliche. something thats just said because it sounds right, or because it just fits. or even worse, when someone shows is nice to you for a week. if thats the case, then just start counting down to the end now.
im done. i can talk about this for days but its beginning to piss me off again. twin..i need a brick lol
till next time
...you know..
Monday, January 5, 2009
Vol. 28: The Hallmark Illusion
i used to be a believer in love. romantic love that is. but lately ive come to realize that it doesnt exist. no matter how bad we try to convince ourselves we are in love, it just doesnt exist. it was created by Hallmark to make a quick buck and make us look retarded at the same time.
ive been listening to one of my best friends talk about her bf. when i first met this guy, even tho it was only in passing, he seemed like a pretty standup kinda guy. she seemed happy, they had been together for a long time, so i thought all systems were go. then out of nowhere a few weeks ago, she IMs me crying her eyes out about him. then she starts telling me all this stuff about how he's been cheating on her and such. long story short, i wanted (and still do) to kill this boy on sight.
another friend of mine from FAMU was telling me about this guy she met while she was living in Atlanta. how he was such a great guy and all this stuff. again, i felt happy for her. she was really feeling him, and he was feeling her. but..he was married. he said that his wife and him were going thru tough times and he wanted to feel love. again, he lost points from me.
and lets not forget my situation...
the point is people watch movies about love and "romance" and they think that being in love is supposed to be perfect with no fighting or yelling, and everyone is supposed to be singing and dancing like the little freaks from the Wizard of Oz, and youre supposed to smile and curtsy all day. thats not what love, if it even exists, is. people get this preconceived notion that you can never be angry or sad. thats why relationships fail. as soon as one thing goes wrong, as soon as one thing is out of place, you are so quick to move to the next person, without giving the person that does love you a fighting chance. you go behind their backs and find another person to satisfy your selfish needs. yes selfish; when you begin to not consider how the other person is feeling, what they think about everything, or how much they are willing to fight for you, thats being selfish. when you have to relationship hop, thats being selfish
Hallmark tricked us into thinking that being in love will cure all of our ailments; that it wil conquer all things. that it is truly good and pure. please. love isnt pure; its just something to do because we've been made to believe that dying alone is bad. true, maybe it is bad, but who are you to judge someone. maybe long ago they decided that they didnt want kids. i know people like that. thats a personal choice. but dont fool yourself or others into thinking that being in love is good. being in love can hurt (as you can tell from my stories) being in love can make you feel like you are not human. that you are lower than shit's shit. thats how you know its man made. American made, because just about everything that comes from man has a negative effect on something. yea it may be convenient, but it still destroys something else. thats what love is. its convenient at the moment, but it may destroy someones soul. till it feel like they are screaming in agony on the inside. and just like every other invention, as soon as one thing goes wrong its off to the scrapyard.
people arent willing to work anymore. they just want love to fall in their laps and become a Stepford Wife. and that feeling that you get when you think youre around the person of your dreams? thats just your gut counting down to the time when you break their heart. thats all butterflies are. weve all been had. weve been took. weve been hoodwinked. bamboozled. led astray, and run amuck.
and if it does exist somewhere, unless youre willing to die for it, for that person, put the words "iloveyou" out of your vocabulary
till next time
ive been listening to one of my best friends talk about her bf. when i first met this guy, even tho it was only in passing, he seemed like a pretty standup kinda guy. she seemed happy, they had been together for a long time, so i thought all systems were go. then out of nowhere a few weeks ago, she IMs me crying her eyes out about him. then she starts telling me all this stuff about how he's been cheating on her and such. long story short, i wanted (and still do) to kill this boy on sight.
another friend of mine from FAMU was telling me about this guy she met while she was living in Atlanta. how he was such a great guy and all this stuff. again, i felt happy for her. she was really feeling him, and he was feeling her. but..he was married. he said that his wife and him were going thru tough times and he wanted to feel love. again, he lost points from me.
and lets not forget my situation...
the point is people watch movies about love and "romance" and they think that being in love is supposed to be perfect with no fighting or yelling, and everyone is supposed to be singing and dancing like the little freaks from the Wizard of Oz, and youre supposed to smile and curtsy all day. thats not what love, if it even exists, is. people get this preconceived notion that you can never be angry or sad. thats why relationships fail. as soon as one thing goes wrong, as soon as one thing is out of place, you are so quick to move to the next person, without giving the person that does love you a fighting chance. you go behind their backs and find another person to satisfy your selfish needs. yes selfish; when you begin to not consider how the other person is feeling, what they think about everything, or how much they are willing to fight for you, thats being selfish. when you have to relationship hop, thats being selfish
Hallmark tricked us into thinking that being in love will cure all of our ailments; that it wil conquer all things. that it is truly good and pure. please. love isnt pure; its just something to do because we've been made to believe that dying alone is bad. true, maybe it is bad, but who are you to judge someone. maybe long ago they decided that they didnt want kids. i know people like that. thats a personal choice. but dont fool yourself or others into thinking that being in love is good. being in love can hurt (as you can tell from my stories) being in love can make you feel like you are not human. that you are lower than shit's shit. thats how you know its man made. American made, because just about everything that comes from man has a negative effect on something. yea it may be convenient, but it still destroys something else. thats what love is. its convenient at the moment, but it may destroy someones soul. till it feel like they are screaming in agony on the inside. and just like every other invention, as soon as one thing goes wrong its off to the scrapyard.
people arent willing to work anymore. they just want love to fall in their laps and become a Stepford Wife. and that feeling that you get when you think youre around the person of your dreams? thats just your gut counting down to the time when you break their heart. thats all butterflies are. weve all been had. weve been took. weve been hoodwinked. bamboozled. led astray, and run amuck.
and if it does exist somewhere, unless youre willing to die for it, for that person, put the words "iloveyou" out of your vocabulary
till next time
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