Vol. 29: The Homocidal Cliche

its definitely been a while since i wrote a note. however the concept and the rules are still the same. this time, i have some things to add.

1. do not just assume that my love life is just terrible and im just venting about how all women are terrible people. women arent terrible. just confused individuals. but thats a topic for another note.
2. do not...i repeat...do NOT tell me about how love has come to your life and about you and your bf/gf and how in love you are, because, personally...i dont care. i always write about what i see. i try to keep my experiences and life out of all of my notes, minus AAS. so again, dont think im talking about myself or about one persons experience. its all general.
3. this is not what i mentioned in my last note. that explanation is still forthcoming.

so on to the note. i was gonna write this last night but the conversation i had about this went well until i fell asleep.

my cousin was at my house last night, and i was forced to watch that bullshit show A Double Shot At Love. now don't get me wrong, i love the twins, and the whole fact of girls making out makes me weak in the knees. however, the concept of the show proved the point ive been making for months now: love does not exist.

how can you say love exist when shows like that, Flavor of Love, and I Love New York exist? you can say they are just shows, and they are, but people are influenced by them and are made to think that love is just that easy to find. its not even just this. movies, music, books...people get sucked into these things and begin to think that whats portrayed in them is what love really is. its all bullshit. that whole "i love you *kiss*" at the end of pretty much every movie is all crap. thats why the movie ends that way. they dont want you to see what happens down the road-- that would make people sad, and they would lose money. i want to see a movie--a sequel that shows the relationship after six months. is it still so happy and lovie dovie? show me when they fight. show me when they argue. and show me the aftermath of that. thats what real love is.

but people dont get that. they dont want that. they just want someone to feed their egos. people want someone that will compliment them 24/7. women want him to be her boy-girlfriend; a borderline gay guy who will kiss her ass all the damn time. alot of guys want to be in charge. someone who will just say "yes dear" "thats a good idea, honey". and then you realize you dont want that when you get bored. but you're so used to being spoiled, you wouldnt be able to handle someone who is willing to go against what you say and tell you flat out that you are wrong. so you go behind the persons back and find someone else who gives you what you want. and then when neither of them want you when the smoke clears, you want to listen to these dumbass love songs talking about how that gender is the death to yours and how you could've done better. yea, you couldve done better, if you had been mature like you always claim you are. you're not mature if you tell 3, 4, 5 people that you are so in love with them, because in reality, you have no idea what love is. you just have the general concept based on what you see at the end of the movies and in love songs. but you dont think you're doing anything wrong because you think you are mature and think you are grown. come on with the bullshit.

and for the love songs and movies giving you false hope in this vague concept, think about this. the same artist that puts out that love song, has another track on the SAME ALBUM talking about how that person was oh so wrong for them. i dont get it. really i dont. i swear people are idiots. but they continuously fall for it. and dont tell me that its because they believe in love. understand what real love is first, before you try to help other people cope with it.

so i say this. before you go and fall "oh so in love" with the supposed greatest person you've ever met...grow the fuck up. get the real feeling. understand that REAL love. it means feeling that you would kill yourself without this person. dont say it to 5 million different people. that's why its lost its edge. its said so much now, it doesnt even mean anything. its become a cliche. something thats just said because it sounds right, or because it just fits. or even worse, when someone shows is nice to you for a week. if thats the case, then just start counting down to the end now.

im done. i can talk about this for days but its beginning to piss me off again. twin..i need a brick lol

till next time

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