Vol. 19: Disgustation

dont try and bite my word. i had to make up a word in order to categorize my emotions right now.

i love my city. there is no place i would rather live. there is so much diversity and culture, the music is great, and the scenery is jaw dropping. but never, in my 20.02 years of life have i been more ashamed to call myself a chicagoan.

as you all may have heard, Julian King, Jennifer Hudson's nephew, was found dead on the westside yesterday morning. he was shot multiple times, including a final shot in the head. residents said that they saw the white suv parked on the street friday night, but because they thought the strange car was involved in neighborhood drug trafficking, they thought nothing of it. it wasnt until one of the residents' dogs (Lil Man) began barking at the car that someone called the police...this 3 days after its original abandonment.

ok. i dont even know where to begin. its not that im taking interest in this because its national news, but because of the lack of inaction in the community. the truck was parked out there on friday, and you didnt call the police because u thought it was drug related? do u understand whats wrong with that statement? i mean really? now granted, i know that area is not the best area in the world (my mom grew up around the corner from the scene) but regardless, if it was drug related, a murder, or somebody fuckin a male prostitute, u should have called the police. but weve become a culture of inaction. what happened to the times where you would see the white "we call the police" sign in every single window in every single home. now, tryin to find one of those is like tryin to find mutha fuckin waldo. but this is not where it begins.

in the 2006-2007 school year, 32 children were killed, in broad daylight, due to gun violence.... no suspects have been convicted

tell me something. how the fuck are THIRTY...THREE-ZERO... children murdered, in cold blood, IN BROAD DAYLIGHT, and dont nobody see nothin? can somebody explain that to me?

im supposed to raise my children here? i dont even want ashley to move here. what kind of place is it where childrens murders can fill a calander month and nobody says a damn thing? i cant bring others to a place where i know if something happens to me, the chances of finding my killer are slim.

the point is, we need to do better. a shitload better if we're to provide and guide our future. this is pathetic. its disgusting. and its shameful. this is the first time ive been embarrassed of my hometown, and now the world knows just how fucked up it really is. im no snitch, but never would i allow any childs killer walk the streets. these kids didnt have to die. they werent doing anything wrong. most of them werent even in high school. this is wrong and it hurts my heart that i have to watch my city be engulfed by a fire greater than that of the big one of 1871. a fire of hate, violence and fear. take back the city chicago. do it for your children...and mine.

till next time peace love and eternal jazzyness.

iloveyou sweetness.

6 comments

Edwina Toka Jackson (TN State) wrote at 9:13am on October 29th, 2008 You really made some good points and it's a shame that this is our future if we don't try to make it better. SMMFH Good note Report - Delete

Donavan Blankman MadDawg Williams wrote at 9:33am on October 29th, 2008 ur right about chicagos finest in the area, and i commend the man on calling when it first happened. but that was just one man, and thats my point. it takes more than just one person to get something done, anywhere but especially in that neighborhood. its not like there was a blizzard this weekend. people are always out in about over there. i can almost gaurantee u that that truck was passed at least 100 times over the weekend. a community needs to stand together and fight if things are to get done. and im not just saying that for blacks, but for everyone. its proven that if the community fights for something it will get done. they should have fought to get the police there sooner, but because no one paid it any mind, this young boys life was lost thanks for giving me the total on the body count. i couldnt find anything that had an exact number Delete

Robert Jackson (Florida A&M) wrote at 10:35am on October 29th, 2008 shit we makin our city look like detroit now. we gotta do better. Report - Delete

Ike SenorFresco Ofor (TCU) wrote at 1:46pm on October 29th, 2008 this is some good shit my dude. I've been on this same ideal ever since the 32 kids were killed due to gun violence in that one skool year. shit i member when after someone had gotten killed at Curie they had to damn near force kids to go bac to skool cuz the were afraid of retaliation. But i agree with you completely, the city of chicago, mainly the southside and westside, has gone by the wayside of moral values and muthafuckin common sense. I wanna hav a family in Chicago but i'll be damned if its on the southside or westside.I'll be damned if i raise my children in an all black neighborhood or send them to an all black school. I agree I'm fuckin embarrassed, not only of my city but my race. Its so sad to see how quickly we all have forgotten the non-violence mentality of one of our greatest leaders, Martin Luther King, Jr. So many blacks have forgotten what he actually marched and gave his life for. Its a fuckin disgrace and i'll go as far as to say now-a-days i'm sumtimes sad to call myself an african-american due to the ignorancy and complete stupidity that seems to run rampant through our race in this day and age. This isnt just a problem within our city but a widespread problem within our ethic culture. I've also said this over ad over again. I DO NOT AND I PRAY THE OLYMPICS WILL NOT COME TO CHICAGO!! that will put the city on a worldwide stage and i doubt drug dealers, pimps, and gangs will put their actions on hold for a month. this comment is bout to be too long in a min and my class is about to end so i'll give part two on my thoughts a lil later ... but there will be a part two focusing on the context in which we raise our children now-a-days .... Report - Delete

Donavan Blankman MadDawg Williams wrote at 3:33pm on October 29th, 2008 i didnt know u felt so strongly about it. ur right tho. u rarely hear about senseless violence in lincoln park or wilmette or mt. prospect. this is a cultural problem. the really messed up thing is that the majority of our people dont even realize the ramifications of their actions. they dont realize what the olympics is going to do to this city. and for those who do realize the underlying truth behind it (such as myself) were met with disbelief. im sorry to say that were an "i told you so" culture. we dont believe what people have to say about things that directly effect us until its too late. then we get mad and wanna blame everyone but the people who really are at fault. thats why i love all my friends. none of them are going to be swept into that cycle. you all realize whats going on and are willing to fight for change, not because its what everyone else is doing but because its the right thing to do. Delete

Alex Banks Fleites (Loyola Academy) wrote at 3:41pm on October 29th, 2008 from going down to home run inn the other day with donovan (DELICIOUS), i realized just how segregated our city really is. i think the city is starting to do something about it, maybe not the right way, by kickin out many familys and pretty much forcing them to live in the suburbs (ie skokie). but something needs to be done, b/c ppl, esp. kids, shouldnt be dying like this. its sad, but its the reality, and until something gets done, nothing will change that.