for most of my conscience life i have put reason above all. i have listened to education, theory and science to guide my mind and spirit. i never let others influence my path; nobody was stupid enough to try. however as i have grown older, and experienced more of what life has to offer, i have found myself flip flopping between this and faith. if u read in my last installment, i said that faith was he guiding force of my life now. that i had to put trust in other things, because reason had let me down so many times before. thats not necessarily true. faith, like reason, has had its ups and downs. it has nurtured me when need be, but it has also made me its bitch. the one good thing about both tho is that they have help me find a balance in their balance. wait no, lemme say that again
because i have learned to not favor reason or faith over one another, i have found a calm in my life. when something i put faith in doesnt come thru, i dont get disheartened and loss my trust. i try to understand why it failed. there is no point in crying over spilled milk. but there is no point in not showing emotion because u made a mistake.
if this doesnt make sense then u werent meant to read it. but it was meant for one person in particular.
i support u. so does he. dont ever doubt that. but i have very little faith in the location uve picked. i dont want u to just agree with us for the sake of it. he want u to go where there is opportunity. somewhere u could live the life u have ALWAYS talked about; the fast paced, high maintenance life uve dreamed of. he just thinks now that ur on the eve of that revolution, ur second guessing yourself; ur thinking that its better to play it safe and live where u can control whats going on.
life is not meant to be controlled. sometimes, shit happenes. u said that urself, but thats no reason to not do something. ur not going to always be able to control ur surroundings, especially where ur planning on going; i just made the suggestion that moving with your love would be a better move because there is a wider spectrum of resources and opportunity. u would have a wider career map, in every kind of industry imaginable. u would make more money, and u would have a higher and diverse class of clients to choose from. yes the standard of living would be higher, but u would be making more money at a faster rate than u would if u maintained ur decision. check it out this way
minimum wage (which i guarantee u would make more than) is going to be nearly 9 bucks. 3 bucks more per hour than ur choice (researched it). gas is going down = food is going down; clothing is going down. service prices are going down. all of these necessities are steadily becoming more affordable at the same time wages are increasing. now granted the sales tax is a tad bit higher than most, but considering all other variables, thats still not bad
now u said that it would be easier for him to downgrade rather than for u to upgrade, and i say thats not true. once ur used to something, u dont wanna lower ur standards. hes lived this fast paced, hectic, city lifestyle his entire life; hes only seen the stars once; hes never seen more than a mile of trees, and hes accustomed to light pollution. i can tell u right now that its not going to be easy at all for someone whos lived that kinda life, and u know that because uve noticed how hectic his life is
now im being unbiased, and i do understand that it would be considerably hard for u to just pick up and move into his environment especially because ur still very young and ur moving somewhere uve never been. its extremely scary. u know ill give u a perfect example just to give u another view of things
last year when i went to florida. i was in a strange place i had only visited once. i had no prospect for a job, and my closest relative was 3 hours away driving. all the odds were against me. but i went there because i thought that it was the best place for me to be because i thought it had the most opportunities. i had FAITH that i would be alright. i was supposed to go to an entirely different school, but because i felt that it was the best place, i went. everyone knows how that went. but it was an experience. yea it wasnt what i expected but it was worth it because my faith sent me off, i reasoned with myself and i am stronger because of it.
now back to this situation. i understand both sides. but i dont think that u should rule out his side because u think that he just wants u to move in with him, because from what ive seen and heard, thats not the case. in my opinion, i think that u should move somewhere else because i dont think that ull be satisfied if u stayed there. u will always be wanting more but because u wouldnt be able to go anywhere else ull be stuck in that rut forever, whereas if u move to his town, the opportunity is great, the resources are seemingly endless, and the atmosphere is something uve always wanted, and he knows these things for a fact
no matter where u move, he will always support u, i know that. he may not always agree because hes a stubborn jackass (just like u...maybe thats why yall love each other) hell always be there for u. but he--we are just trying to look out for u. we both have alot of experience dealing with new places, people and circumstances and were trying to help u before u do something u cant take back. in the end its up to u. im just trying to give my input.
but all of this allpies to everyone who reads this. dont hold urself back. dont let reason stop u from experiencing the fullness life has to offer.
anyway, till next time peace love and eternal jazzyness
iloveyou sweetness
because i have learned to not favor reason or faith over one another, i have found a calm in my life. when something i put faith in doesnt come thru, i dont get disheartened and loss my trust. i try to understand why it failed. there is no point in crying over spilled milk. but there is no point in not showing emotion because u made a mistake.
if this doesnt make sense then u werent meant to read it. but it was meant for one person in particular.
i support u. so does he. dont ever doubt that. but i have very little faith in the location uve picked. i dont want u to just agree with us for the sake of it. he want u to go where there is opportunity. somewhere u could live the life u have ALWAYS talked about; the fast paced, high maintenance life uve dreamed of. he just thinks now that ur on the eve of that revolution, ur second guessing yourself; ur thinking that its better to play it safe and live where u can control whats going on.
life is not meant to be controlled. sometimes, shit happenes. u said that urself, but thats no reason to not do something. ur not going to always be able to control ur surroundings, especially where ur planning on going; i just made the suggestion that moving with your love would be a better move because there is a wider spectrum of resources and opportunity. u would have a wider career map, in every kind of industry imaginable. u would make more money, and u would have a higher and diverse class of clients to choose from. yes the standard of living would be higher, but u would be making more money at a faster rate than u would if u maintained ur decision. check it out this way
minimum wage (which i guarantee u would make more than) is going to be nearly 9 bucks. 3 bucks more per hour than ur choice (researched it). gas is going down = food is going down; clothing is going down. service prices are going down. all of these necessities are steadily becoming more affordable at the same time wages are increasing. now granted the sales tax is a tad bit higher than most, but considering all other variables, thats still not bad
now u said that it would be easier for him to downgrade rather than for u to upgrade, and i say thats not true. once ur used to something, u dont wanna lower ur standards. hes lived this fast paced, hectic, city lifestyle his entire life; hes only seen the stars once; hes never seen more than a mile of trees, and hes accustomed to light pollution. i can tell u right now that its not going to be easy at all for someone whos lived that kinda life, and u know that because uve noticed how hectic his life is
now im being unbiased, and i do understand that it would be considerably hard for u to just pick up and move into his environment especially because ur still very young and ur moving somewhere uve never been. its extremely scary. u know ill give u a perfect example just to give u another view of things
last year when i went to florida. i was in a strange place i had only visited once. i had no prospect for a job, and my closest relative was 3 hours away driving. all the odds were against me. but i went there because i thought that it was the best place for me to be because i thought it had the most opportunities. i had FAITH that i would be alright. i was supposed to go to an entirely different school, but because i felt that it was the best place, i went. everyone knows how that went. but it was an experience. yea it wasnt what i expected but it was worth it because my faith sent me off, i reasoned with myself and i am stronger because of it.
now back to this situation. i understand both sides. but i dont think that u should rule out his side because u think that he just wants u to move in with him, because from what ive seen and heard, thats not the case. in my opinion, i think that u should move somewhere else because i dont think that ull be satisfied if u stayed there. u will always be wanting more but because u wouldnt be able to go anywhere else ull be stuck in that rut forever, whereas if u move to his town, the opportunity is great, the resources are seemingly endless, and the atmosphere is something uve always wanted, and he knows these things for a fact
no matter where u move, he will always support u, i know that. he may not always agree because hes a stubborn jackass (just like u...maybe thats why yall love each other) hell always be there for u. but he--we are just trying to look out for u. we both have alot of experience dealing with new places, people and circumstances and were trying to help u before u do something u cant take back. in the end its up to u. im just trying to give my input.
but all of this allpies to everyone who reads this. dont hold urself back. dont let reason stop u from experiencing the fullness life has to offer.
anyway, till next time peace love and eternal jazzyness
iloveyou sweetness
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