this entire week, ive been at the mercy of my mother. not just because of the holiday, but because of this stupid ass party. i havent talked to anyone, seen anyone (other than gee gee who i saw at church) or hung out with anyone. ive cleaned, moved, and bitten my tongue more than a few hundred times this week. and all i asked was to be able to go to just one of the several parties/clubs that i was promoting. but when the time came, and after i drove all over the place im met with "oh you cant take the car". now i know about the insurance and all that, but if it was such a big deal, why did was i made to drive all over the damn south side runnin her errands. if the insurance was such an issue, and had i known that i was gonna get stiffed, i wouldve told her to do it her self. but i didnt and now i gotta look at my friends go to the places that i told them about.
now i dont do things because i expect a reward. i like doing nice things because i am a nice person. but the thing is, i would like to enjoy my time with my friends and let her have her party with hers. but nope, i was forced to sit in a house with 20 or more middle aged people. all of whom knew what was going on and didnt say a goddamn thing in my defense. not even as a common courtesy to a fellow human being.
i just really cant wrap my head around it. we're always told to act mature and to grow up and take responsibility, but when the time comes, we arent allowed to. now i was willing to fill up her gas tank-- key phrase: fill it up..not just put in what i used (and this goes for my sisters car as well) but it was still a no. i just want to be met with a definitive concept. dont tell me to act like an adult if i wont be treated like one. i survived a whole shitload of hell in my life, so i think i am qualified to know what the best outcome of a situation is. and im not just saying that because im mad or because i think i know everything...i have a good head on my shoulders, more so than i can say for some of her friends. and yet i am continuously cast aside for others. i mean im 20 years old. do u understand how humiliating it is to have to say to ur people "my mommy said i cant go out." the fuck? what am i..4?
ill be damned if that happens again. i hope everyone here has enjoyed stepping all over me and using me for the last twenty years because by this time next year that opportunity will be gone...because i will be in Charlotte. my mind is made up. and u know what? i really dont give a fuck who has an objection to it.
till next time
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Alex Banks Fleites (Loyola Academy) wrote
at 3:02am on November 30th, 2008
what????!!!?? U knw u dont belong in charlotte, ur juss pretending you do b/c u want to see ur fairy tale come true..be realistic, stay here
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Dianne Wolfe (Loyola Chicago) wrote
at 12:28pm on November 30th, 2008
AMEN!!!
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Jessica 'Chulita' Clay (Spelman) wrote
at 9:10pm on November 30th, 2008
whoa whoa whoa........i agree that there needs to be a lil freedom here, but let's take a step back and analyze the situation...
numero uno: booooyyyy...i WISH you would've even THUNK (yes, thunk) about tellin yo mama to run her own errands!!! you musta lost yo micky ficky mind!!!!!!! are you tryna get KILT?!?!?!!!
numero two: imma have to agree with alex times three on the moving to charlotte thing. besides your boo...WHAT THE HELL is in charlotte?!...as katt says, don't worry, i'll wait....
numero tres: story of my life...i don't think anyone can have parents more strict than mine...{{to all the literal losers who have nothing else to do but analyze what i'm writing: it's an EXAGGERATION!! :p}}...but anywho, that's life donavan. the only way you can prove that you're grown and stop having to listen to what they say is to move out. you seem to think charlotte is the solution but it's all the same. just leave. don't be bitter about it. i mean it is her house and i'm pretty sure it's her car...sooo....yea, that's my 2 cents...take it or leave it.
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Donavan Blankman MadDawg Williams wrote
at 9:26pm on November 30th, 2008
taken completely out of context. but what else can i expect from u karma. not much obviously lol so to answer ur numerous questions and alexs:
1. i didnt tell her. but just the same i seriously considered it. u cant tell me u never had those thoughts before.
2. UNC is there. im not just going to be with ashley. i love her but thats a serious step to take, especially if something happens. im not goin there simply to live a fairy tale happily ever after fantasy. im going there to learn. ashley is a bonus.
3. be happy u have two. i get an exxagerated amount of aggression from the one that i have. and my mama is way tougher than ur parents are on u
4. charlotte is not the solution. moving out is. if i could convince ashley otherwise i would stay here and move into a lovely condo. im not being bitter. if i was bitter i would have moved out today. im just fed up with people, including ashley, feeling the need to take advantage of my weak spots when its available.
fair enough?
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Kristal Nicole (Chattanooga, TN) wrote
at 10:41pm on November 30th, 2008
I don't think you should move to Charlotte. THERE. I said it.
YES move out
NO don't move to Charlotte.
Right now i'm speaking off the top of my head, but I am SPEAKING how i feel. DON'T MOVE TO CHARLOTTE. I'm sorry but I will say it and, sorry ash you might just have to hate me for this one, but I think you two should compromise. Donovan you're moving there because you want her in your life JUST THAT BAD... but you have to think and consider the negatives too. You say that UNC is there. LOVELY. there's a UNC in CHAPEL HILL, GREENSBORO and I think like DURHAM or Somewhere else, but my point is that there are other UNC's and other great schools in North Carolina. Hell, there are great schools back in Florida, aren't there? You ultimately WOULD be moving to Charlotte FOR ASHLEY. Now, about the negatives. God forbit if you guys don't go as planned for whatever reason. THEN WHAT? Yeah you say that UNC is there, UNC is just a... "it just so happens to be there" type of thing. and "it just so happens" that Ashley wants to go there too. So basically I guess in a longwinded way, i'm saying that I don't think you realize it, but in the long run, you are setting yourself up for this same situation, but this time you are married/dating the culprit. If things were "different" than the aforementioned conundrum, would YOU be the only one always bending and contorting and giving up your comfort spot so that she could be comfortable 100% of the time?
(side note... sorta: Stepford Wives... WATCH IT)
I'm not saying that she does deserve it, but i'm saying that the key to a happy relationship is sometimes submission to the desires and needs of the other. It can't always be Donny give and ashie recieves. Eventually you're going to either A: become soft like baby shit or B: grow tired of it and eventually start hating ashie :( we don't want that, so basically we have to treat this while there is still time. How do you guys deal when it's a situation where you have to give up...
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Kristal Nicole (Chattanooga, TN) wrote
at 10:52pm on November 30th, 2008
your comfort zone for the other person? From the only side that's available to me (donovan) i hear that he says he always has to contort. This does NOT mean I am on his side, but simply that this is all I know. I really would like to hear your side and how you feel Ash. I understand somewhat, but I hope and pray you aren't taking this how I in my younger (and age 17) days would'vve handled this situation. It just so happens that I had a relationship with an older person too when I was 17 and like I think I stated before, It was a HUGE mind game, I admit, I led him on BIG TIME, I CONSTANTLY played with his feelings and basically once my parents found out (cuz I wasn't really allowed to have a boyfriend i guess...) they MADE me break up with him. I been wanted to do it, but I never did because I mentally wanted him around, but not physically... it was really crazy and weird but basically he ended up all like "I thought you loved me, stand up to your parents and tell them you wanna be with me, don't listen to them" cuz basically he thought I was breaking up with him cuz my parents was making me. OK now it was PARTLY cuz of that, and PARTLY cuz I was sick of him. He was mentally soft and that was a turn off. So he stalked me in the form of calling my dad and my aunt and ever phone I ever called him from and coming to my house (mind you my aunts were in town because this all happened during my high school graduation. me and him had been dating for almost a year. May 21, 2007 would have been a year but i broke up with him may 20th lmfao fuckin loser, DAMN i hate him...) Basically I don't want you to be mentally soft Donovan. To basically kiss a person's ass and let everything be their way as he did with me, you could fall into the same... "trap" not that she is playing mind games, I'm sorry I cannot say what she is doing, but i'm basically laying all those cards out on the table. For the longest time you keep hearing me make "references" to the bad relationship I had...
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Donavan Blankman MadDawg Williams wrote
at 10:57pm on November 30th, 2008
hmm. how this go from me bein pissed at my mom to bein about ashley? lol
whatever, stay tuned for the CoR. that im posting right....NOW
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Jessica 'Chulita' Clay (Spelman) wrote
at 10:58pm on November 30th, 2008
oh donavan, so simple minded...
&& imma need you to quit always being on the defense when i disagree with things you make open to the facebook world!! lol
& i especially can't see how something can be out of context when it's a direct response to what you've written, but whatever. the point is...
1. never said that you told her that. you're not that rere. i mean you are, but that is too much...even for you...
2. ok when did UNC pop up in the pic? what happened to U of I? and i said i agreed with him on the moving to charlotte part. we both know there are no fairy tales in life...wasn't talkin about that part. i mean you do you, but for someone who loves a busy city...charlotte just seems a bit more low key for your personality.
3. two doesn't always mean life's better. and have you met my parents? ha!
4. like i said, it's all the same. doesn't matter where you go...just go. as for ashley...she's probably just scared and looking out for her own future. just like you wouldn't move there just for her, she has to be as sure about her opportunities in the chi as you would need to be about UNC.
and that last little paragraph suggests bitterness... but anyways i get your point...kinda...except for the ashley taking advantage of your weaknesses...but that's ya business.....
fair enough :)
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Kristal Nicole (Chattanooga, TN) wrote
at 11:00pm on November 30th, 2008
but basically (damn i've said basically like 12 times...) this is the horrible ordeal i when through and when I see whats happening I see what potentally COULD be going on. She's the girl of your dreams, as I was to him, but yet she tells you she loves you, as I did to him, and i SOMETIMES showed it i guess... and i think she does to you sorta, i guess... and you say she has been unfaithful before...and i cheated on him... kinda. I kissed 3 different people in one week... LMFAO good times. (Side note, i havent had a good kiss in forever, DAMN I HATE TENNESSEE!!! I don't have anyone to kiss! LOL) but anyways, I'm not saying it will play out entirely like my hellish relationship did, but I don't want it to go ANYWHERE near that road, you know? So i just want you two to find a common ground on these sort of things, don't let one just become the slave and one the master
(AGAIN: STEPFORD WIVES... Somewhere in that movie is the point I'm not really but sorta trying to make!)
Ummm you know I suck at writing, and I may have gotten somewhere off topic, but if you have any question as to my logic and reasoning on this PLEEEEEASE question me. BUT Do it to my face. Don't justbe angry and not talk about it. Thats our problem now, WE ARENT TALKING TOGETHER.
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Donavan Blankman MadDawg Williams wrote
at 11:05pm on November 30th, 2008
still wonderin how this became about ashley. im not knockin the input, its just interesting. interesting enough to get me commenting on my own note which RARELY happens. but keep it up. im sure ashley will be intrigued
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Kristal Nicole (Chattanooga, TN) wrote
at 11:10pm on November 30th, 2008
LMFAO I TOLD YOU I SUCK AT WRITING!!!
I think this is a spin off of the things we talked about earlier, I been keepin it bottled in all day, that on top of my own problems, but then again I dont really have any problems i just found that to be the right thing to say at the moment (lol that was funny, lighten up im kidding!) but i have no idea where ashley comes into this, I just had some stuff to get off my mind. YOU ME HER YAHOO CONVERSATIONAL CHAT THINGY... i have no idea when though, but one day we'll do that, IF this problem doesn't get resolved.
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Kristal Nicole (Chattanooga, TN) wrote
at 11:17pm on November 30th, 2008
PS: we settled that one about Charlotte today. It's a big city with about the same amount of people as Chicago. DON'T knock Charlotte JUST because it's in north carolina aka the country. I mean... the biggest difference would probably be that it's a hick version of Chicago... if it was full of rednecks. I can't believe I would say such a thing about my own beloved State LMAO But i can't front, THEY HAVE A DAMN NASCAR TRACK!!! They're hick as fuck. LOL
Charlotte Motor Speedway 500 or some bullshit, Ricky Bobby lived in some hick part of North Carolina in Talladega Nights (Look at his drivers license in the movie. Plus when they annouce Cal at the end his says that cal's from some place in NC too. Cal and Ricky "grew up" together. Shake n Bake), although TALLADEGA is a Nascar Track in ALABAMA lol it said that in the movie, but it is SO lame that I know that. I just watched Talladega Nights like yesterday. And I love that movie, its hilarious, SO SUE ME
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Donavan Blankman MadDawg Williams wrote
at 11:17pm on November 30th, 2008
i hope she doesnt take EVERYONES comments into consideration, because if she did that i definitely think she would be mad. ur the only one who is really talking about me and her
but maybe im tweakin. maybe im not but somethings gotta change
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Kristal Nicole (Chattanooga, TN) wrote
at 11:26pm on November 30th, 2008
Yes I agree. Something does. All I ask it that MORE COMMUNICATION on IMPORTANT DECISIONS be made, and that YOU don't end up making all the SACRIFICES...
Oh my god, do you know I sat here for like 10 minutes trying to think of that word like 2 comments ago? So i just started saying shit that basically would've been simplier if I just used to word SACRIFICE rather than basically explaining what a sacrifice is... ummm this part:
"I'm not saying that she does deserve it, but i'm saying that the key to a happy relationship is sometimes submission to the desires and needs of the other. It can't always be Donny give and ashie recieves. Eventually you're going to either A: become soft like baby shit or B: grow tired of it and eventually start hating ashie :( we don't want that, so basically we have to treat this while there is still time. How do you guys deal when it's a situation where you have to give up..."
Somewhere in there I was supposed to use the word sacrifice...
Ok off topic again, nice one Kristal.....
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Donavan Blankman MadDawg Williams wrote
at 11:30pm on November 30th, 2008
actually u couldve avoided that whole paragraph by sayin sacrice lol
its ok tho i still love u lol
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Kristal Nicole (Chattanooga, TN) wrote
at 11:36pm on November 30th, 2008
See? Thats what I mean. I take the long way sometimes. Thats why i'm like 7 in a 20 year old's stunning dazzling body :]
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Donavan Blankman MadDawg Williams wrote
at 11:38pm on November 30th, 2008
haha see i think im rubbin off on u. thats definitely a don statement
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Kristal Nicole (Chattanooga, TN) wrote
at 1:18am on December 1st, 2008
LMFAO @ my don-ness
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Donavan Blankman MadDawg Williams wrote
at 1:19am on December 1st, 2008
lol
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